Staying the Night...OH MY!

This past Saturday my husband planned for us to attend a charity dance for the community, but what he had not let me know is he planned for our son to stay with his parents....not until that afternoon on Saturday. Now, I know that its may be good for our son to stay the night or it may be good for us to have some time without him, but I just didn't feel ready. Well, I told them I would debate it and see. I prepared everything for him incase I decided he could stay the night. We dropped him off and headed for the dance. It ended at midnight. We stayed till almost that time, but when it was over I wanted to go get my son. I tried to get in touch, but no reply so I didn't know what to do. My girlfriend ensured me that he was okay. I never question if he was okay...I just wanted my son at home with me, but I went home and attempted to sleep. I COULDN"T...it was horrible to say the least. Finally, early that morning I went to sleep for a short period. I woke up around 3 am and was heartbroken because all I wanted was to see my son's face...to hold him....just make sure he was fine, but I couldn't. Well, I decided since I can't sleep I am going to do my devotion. I'd been talking to God all night....as I got to the end of my devotion which was about Whining I came to this verse:

Dear friends, don't be surprised at the fiery trials you are going through, as if something strange were happening to you. Instead, be very glad---for these trials make you partners with Christ in his suffering, so that you will have the wonderful joy of seeing his glory when it is revealed to all the world. (1 Peter 4:12-13)

At first I thought God how can I be happy...I am sad and just want my son, but as I sat there I thought wow God...You gave Your son for us...How? I can't even understand that!!! I sat with my thoughts silently speaking to God....I stopped my whining because after this I couldn't whine...I knew my son was safe, that I would see him in the morning, and that all would be okay. I thanked God for showing me how amazing He is, and how He has blessed me with the gift of a child. I am thankful for my sufferings...it being me losing my sight to me missing my child that night...thankful because they bring me close to Him. At the time it may hurt and it may be hard, but He is by my side at all times. My weak eyes may bring many trials my way, but through these weak eyes and the trials they entail will also make me "partners with Christ in his suffering" so that I can see the joy of his glory revealed one day. And I will be glad in that and Rejoice!!

P.S. And it will be awhile before I let my son stay the night again. He did fine, but his mother just loves having him very close by!!! I love waking up to that smile below..who wouldn't??!!