Staying the Night...OH MY!

This past Saturday my husband planned for us to attend a charity dance for the community, but what he had not let me know is he planned for our son to stay with his parents....not until that afternoon on Saturday. Now, I know that its may be good for our son to stay the night or it may be good for us to have some time without him, but I just didn't feel ready. Well, I told them I would debate it and see. I prepared everything for him incase I decided he could stay the night. We dropped him off and headed for the dance. It ended at midnight. We stayed till almost that time, but when it was over I wanted to go get my son. I tried to get in touch, but no reply so I didn't know what to do. My girlfriend ensured me that he was okay. I never question if he was okay...I just wanted my son at home with me, but I went home and attempted to sleep. I COULDN"T...it was horrible to say the least. Finally, early that morning I went to sleep for a short period. I woke up around 3 am and was heartbroken because all I wanted was to see my son's face...to hold him....just make sure he was fine, but I couldn't. Well, I decided since I can't sleep I am going to do my devotion. I'd been talking to God all night....as I got to the end of my devotion which was about Whining I came to this verse:

Dear friends, don't be surprised at the fiery trials you are going through, as if something strange were happening to you. Instead, be very glad---for these trials make you partners with Christ in his suffering, so that you will have the wonderful joy of seeing his glory when it is revealed to all the world. (1 Peter 4:12-13)

At first I thought God how can I be happy...I am sad and just want my son, but as I sat there I thought wow God...You gave Your son for us...How? I can't even understand that!!! I sat with my thoughts silently speaking to God....I stopped my whining because after this I couldn't whine...I knew my son was safe, that I would see him in the morning, and that all would be okay. I thanked God for showing me how amazing He is, and how He has blessed me with the gift of a child. I am thankful for my sufferings...it being me losing my sight to me missing my child that night...thankful because they bring me close to Him. At the time it may hurt and it may be hard, but He is by my side at all times. My weak eyes may bring many trials my way, but through these weak eyes and the trials they entail will also make me "partners with Christ in his suffering" so that I can see the joy of his glory revealed one day. And I will be glad in that and Rejoice!!

P.S. And it will be awhile before I let my son stay the night again. He did fine, but his mother just loves having him very close by!!! I love waking up to that smile below..who wouldn't??!!

Unexpected Reminder

God can remind us He is always there in the most unexpected ways. It happened to me last night as I was reading my little one his bedtime story out of his Baby Bible. I had flipped open to a story and began to read. It was titled "The Big Storm," from Luke 8:22-25. It was about the disciples being caught in a storm and calling out for Jesus to save them. Jesus stopped the storm and everything was fine. As I was reading, I got to this line "The disciples called, "Jesus save us!" Jesus woke up and made the storm stop." As I finished reading this I felt God's comfort saying everything is going to be okay my child. After,I held my baby as we said our prayers thanking Him because He is stronger than any storm. That's right! No Matter what your going through or what world wind of events are falling around you...He is there!! Look to him because He can bring you comfort...He can make it stop...He is Amazing!

I remember when I went to Emory and they confirmed I had R.P....I cried for a second but then I felt His arms embrace me and He let me know everything is going to be okay. It was comfort no one else could give me, but Him. I felt complete peace. I know when the world is falling apart and the storm is strong call to God because He can save you! Now it might not be in your exact timing, but remember His plan is bigger than ours and He knows best so hang in and keep Him by your side. And remember He can even comfort you from a Baby Bible or even through weak eyes. God Bless!

This is a picture from Christmas where I am trying to read but He saw the camera so He posed for it. LOL

Maybe I can see with my eyes closed

Last night my husband decided we needed to let our little baby boy, Kash, sleep in his bed. Now you may wonder why we haven't done that yet being he is almost 10 months old...that would be my fault. He is my first baby, and I love that when I wake up in the middle of the night, which is several times, I can see him and check on him without going but a step out of bed. I have been a little paranoid as a new mom. Also my husband travels a lot, and I like having him in my room when he is gone. I even sleep in my glasses so I can see him right when I wake up. My husband has been a trooper on this deal for the most part.

Well, anyways last night at some point Kash must have cried or I missed him because when I woke up uncomfortable and about to fall off the bed; There he was taking over the bed. My husband woke up confused and I honestly had no answer. I don't remember getting him at all but here he is spread out with his head touching me and his feet touching his dad. We laughed and took pics as you see.

Well, after this morning I realized that I must know my way well and all the obstacles to his bed in the dark. I just may be able to see with my eyes closed because I'm pretty sure I never opened them last night. Now, lets just hope I remember where the stairs are with these weak eyes if it ever happens again. Thankfully, God keeps us safe even when we don't realize we need it.